Dimension 3 seems so far away..or is that because I am living in Dimension 3.I have reached Dimension 3.Materialism no longer affects me.Life goes on and on and I dont sit and think about it.Life happens naturally,as naturally as i breathe.It is no longer a surprise or a puzzle to unravel.Its complication is no longer an issue.It is simple,as simple as a line.I dont have to try too hard to live.

And i have floated into 3Q.I look around and I am here.This is 3Q.Life doesn't completely recede from you here.you keep away only from the negatives that plague you.This is how its done...I am here finally.3Q doesn't leave me feeling bad or guilty..it just doesn't touch me.

Work takes you to 3Q.....

Relationships

Every person,every single relationship in the world comes with an expiry date.While the relationship is working out,you feel like its forever ....that to the end of time you ll remain the same and the world around you.You build up people in your mind,hold their hands a little tighter because you know how precious they are to you.
Looking back at life,I have so many memories.Of reckless joy and abandon,uncontrollable laughter....sleepovers,hours whiled away just talking.....relationships that i thought would remain the same all my life..and yet in the space of a year or two have turned completely alien.
I look back with a lot of love at those times..my friends,the world i was living in,the person i was ..carefree with not a grouse against the world.
I do not grieve only over the time and the people who have passed me by on my path,i grieve for the girl i was...i do not mourn her passing away....i only wish i was that carefree once more...
Nothing is forever..least of all people....the connection you experience with people,the time you share with them is for that moment only..maybe that's why we associate willy nilly our emotions with what existed around us at that time,maybe that's why when i hear some songs i feel a tug at my heart and wish for the times i lay with my friends in the golden grass...
.do memories exist in the air around us?why is that sometimes when a you feel a breeze you are reminded of certain incidents...a smile develops on your face when you come across the most innocuous things...the best times of our lives pass by so quickly and yet when you look back there was so much happening every millisecond...

Relationships-2

I do not regret anything today...not the relationships i had,not the people i met nor the decisions i took...i am the creator of my life and i love the way it is...imperfect and sometimes sour with rejection...tangled up in a silver web of relationships.......my life is not a fairytale and i would be lying if i said i didn't want to be Cinderella...
I want to be Cinderella...but a Cinderella who loves books,who cannot get enough of making loved ones happy....I ll stay back from the ball if that is what i need to do....I am still me...

The numb version of Dimension 3

I ve just discovered the numb version of Dimension 3:

1.Keep smiling ,be ready with small talk...parry,talk,advance

2.wear a shield around your heart that protects you from emotion

3.Smile,laugh and cry with the aplomb of an accomplished actress at all the right times

4.Look at people and see through them,talk to them with your mind someplace else

in other words..maintain the outer trappings of being an absolutely normal person

and inside be who you are...itching,scratching stumble around

Older and wiser

A few months older and very much wiser!!!!Have i finally grown up..or is it just my real self coming out finally.

Have i learned to live with my grouses or to get rid of them ...or do i not have any grouses anymore..

I yearn to live to reach higher than i ve ever reached for before...reach up to the unity that they call god...well for me its not god..its ecstasy so divine that i would throw away my life in a flash to be there..for a moment when i know my heart s got no tether..my mind no limits..freedom to think the way I want to...with no judges to rate me..no morality preachers to tell me right and wrong...my thoughts become brighter,more powerful so that when they explode they blind me..and I think ....did my stupid mind think these up ..when was my mind fertile enough to have such seedlings spring up?